okay, so here are a number of things that have been running through MY WHOLE BEING.. lol

-the usual, i feel like i’m underachieving. i’m 22, and so far nothing significant has happened in my life yet. I don’t want to be brooding about this next year.

-i’m losing my religion. lol, to be specific.. i’m getting sick of church-as-usual. good thing i have real friends in church, makes it worth the travel, but either way, i’m sick of tradition and a lot of things involving evangelical church life. (this has been going on for years. hehe)

-i miss performing at CCP, it’s gonna be a few more months before i step on that stage again.. i miss the stress and excitement a big performance brings. i miss backstage chats and not wanting to dress up til 20 minutes before the show. i miss the people i use to perform with, i hope to see them soon.

-i’ve been thinking of deleting my facebook.

anyway. there’s my post. nothing substantial, really.

and oh, in a few weeks.. it’s do or die.

I hope i get in. i really hope i get in..

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